Acceptance of the society for the things that we choose, esp. if it is not acceptable to all maybe really slow. But as long as you you are happy, and you're not doing any harm to anyone, so be it. I hope that soon you will receive the acceptance that you are longing for. Anyway, good luck.

Bible is hard to understand indeed. But I think that it contains teachings that even though hard to understand, wouldn't send us to hell.