Vanessa,
Thank you for including 'us' in your journey. I look forward to reading more about your transformation. Especially the personal questions you must surely be asking yourself.

Though I do not have a desire to be a woman (at least I don't think so), I do sometimes question why I like to crossdress. Is it because I truely like the feel of lingerie? Is it because it's taboo? Am I gay and not know it? I do like to play with other men.

Lately, I have been working on accepting the desire to wear lady's lingerie. So far it's going ok, still working on it but I feel much more secure in myself with wearing lingerie then I ever have. And, the more I allow myself to accept being a crossdresser without the shame, guilt and embarrassment, I'm finding I have thoughts of wanting to go a little further. It seems my desires are growing into wanting to try out wearing a nice long dress or maybe a skirt and blouse. And then little thoughts pop into my brain about what it would be like if I shaved all my body hair. I have always had a beard so it would be hard to try wearing a dress or such in public like I have had thoughts about.

This is just me me and some of my thoughts. So I hope by reading more I can learn more about myself and hopefully answer some of my own questions. Being able to read other's struggles like yours help me identify what it is I'm feeling. You may write about a subject similar to mine which might help me to say to myself: 'Yes, that's it! I feel that way too.' or 'No, that's not it'. I think you get where I'm going with that. I'm starting to ramble now I think.

Thank you again, I've only recently started following your blog and so far have found it to be a great read! Keep up the good work, I look forward to more.
Lucee