Joell,
Even though she was "lost" she wrote to you. You were abused by her but you admired her beyond the physical until you couldn't rationally do that to yourself. She learned that lesson even if she couldn't live it and you reinforced yourself to her when you saw her. Keep your own heart open and only good can come to other people in due time. Maybe she is the reason you have Square Peg, the injustice, the misery, and despair of her young life which you witnessed first-hand when you were helpless to help. You will never be helpless to help again in your life. Some angels in our lives, we can't do a thing for them but they change our lives forever.
Love you,
Sheila