I believe I am worthy of being loved - it's taken me awhile to get there and I honestly didn't know if I wanted it...I do, with every part of who I am - I know someone has to be out there that will love me.

Thanks - I'll keep being patient. Love your blog, it has made me realize that what I'm going through isn't some cruel trick on me...there are others out there and that is amazingly comforting.

Pouring rain - a courthouse - a dress I had bought off the rack the night before.
I had a $3000 dress waiting in SF and a huge 200 person wedding that was supposed to happen in 3 months.
But a war in Iraq had happened and the "love of my life" was being deployed with the National Guard. A year was going to pass before I would see him again and we moved it all up so that I would be able to get updates on what was happening to him. This man was my dream and the love of my life.
I got pregnant with Taylor the week before he left (he was deployed 3 weeks after our "wedding") I saw him for a week when Taylor was born, he was a shell of the person I knew, I chalked it up to the rushed visit.
He came home when T was 4 months old, Brady was conceived, a true homecoming baby, the man I married never came home. The man came home, but the man I loved never returned. In his place a changed person whose priorities were so out of wack and full of selfishness.
Our marriage ended when he stepped off the plane, even though I didn't realize it for another year, 2 weeks after Brady was born and he left us. To this day I'll never forgive him. I still wonder where we'd be had he never had to leave....but this is my life now, and Brady is 4 years old.
I look forward to what's next, I just wish it would hurry up and get here.

Can't wait for the necklace to arrive - I have a buisness trip to LA for work (that the boys are joining me for) and I have the perfect outfit to wear it with...

I love it- it's perfect...

I couldn't agree more - my thinking is...this "shoe" is going to take time away from my children on a Friday night, well he better be worth it.

Awesome...love it....

this is my 4th Mother's Day being a single Momma - I feel stronger as each one passes, it's amazing what we are all capable of! Happy Mother's Day everyone!