I can relate to the desire/need to find something beautiful, magical, and somewhat innocent as a buffer against the harsh ugliness that also exits in our world. When one confronts evil in any of its forms a place of escape/magic/beauty is healing. . even imperative. .to prevent becoming consumed by pain. For you this place was your kitchen creating the innocent beauty of yogurt. For me that place is my garden. Its a haven that strengthens me to reengage and try to provide hope to people who suffer severely. Thank you so much for such a sensitive and moving essay.