Oooh, good luck! I'll pray for you! :)
This is a very good question. It was on a genetics field trip to the science center; we were having a bioethics discussion while the gel electrophoresis was running. One of the things we talked about was egg donation (for cloning for organ-harvesting), and this was his argument to get me to sell him some of my eggs in this hypothetical scenario. (I didn't realize at the time quite how weird it was that I was in middle school and a middle aged man asked to buy my eggs! even as a hypothetical.) So that's an extra-damaging context in which to announce this rubbish; I wonder how many girls in that class grew up believing that you release thousands of eggs in your period (!) and then became vulnerable to sketchy egg-donation/harvesting schemes.
Oh my. All the hugs and prayers! I wish you good interviews and good discernment. About the test, remember the paradox of the false positive, and consider reaching out to parents of children with Down's, even online, for support and just-in-case preparation. Prayers here too!
The frustrating thing is that it wouldn't be (as much of) a ring-toss game if we were better educated. I know women who learned that ovulation itself is a multi-day process. A biology teacher once told me that you release thousands of eggs each cycle. I once met a high schooler who couldn't wear tampons because she didn't know where her vagina was.
If you can find anyone in your area to teach it, I would recommend some kind of more in-depth fertility tracking. A good friend of mine used Creighton and discovered she had low progesterone. She took progesterone supplements (timed to her cycle) and did get pregnant! I've also had normal periods but it turns out I also have some signs of low progesterone (tail-end brown bleeding and more recently premenstrual spotting) so I'm probably getting my progesterone tested in a couple weeks.
If Fruits Basket is still on Netflix, I recommend that. Also I think they added Princess Tutu--could that be? I don't have Netflix anymore so I don't know.
Look into Alice, which Carnegie Mellon designed for encouraging middle-school girls to code. It's object-oriented programming, which I did not understand at all when I tried it, but if you start realizing that you're supposed to feel more like you're designing a game than like you're writing mathematical code, it should make A LOT more sense.
H'm, this is heartening. I was very excited about it but then I read a lot about how white-washed it was. But maybe I'll give it a chance.
1) Yes. 2) This is okay. 3) This might be not-okay if you had a moral obligation to like people, but you don't! So it's okay.
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