Mauricio Lemos
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4 years ago @ octopus pie - #935 + 936 - i won't b... · 0 replies · +36 points
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #927-929 - one of thes... · 0 replies · +27 points
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #925 - i felt it bounc... · 0 replies · +10 points
Then, one day I finally said to myself "y'know none of that is really true, right? You're aging and one day you're going to die and then you'll be gone and the world will keep on going without you". I honestly didn't expect that simple acknowledgment to hit me like a speeding truck as it did. I spent nights awake for a few weeks in a revolting mixture of panic, anger and projected agony as my mind played over and over all the possible and horrible ways in which I'd die, but not without before having suffered for years and years every existing old age ailment and then the bafflement of trying to conceptualize the idea of not existing anymore.
A couple years after and I'm still learning to deal with it.
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #922 - appreciate the ... · 1 reply · +8 points
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #911 - is this closure? · 0 replies · +21 points
Like many adults (including myself) she's gone through a process of unmaking, of unlearning all the stupid ideas and posturing that adolescent us cobble into a makeshift personality to face the world as a pretend adult. Only after all that crumbles away for one reason or another, we finally start growing a true version of adulthood.
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #907 - still kinda hea... · 2 replies · +14 points
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #906 - lotta weird energy · 1 reply · +1 points
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #904 + 905 - knowing · 3 replies · +2 points
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #897 - tell me again · 0 replies · +11 points
4 years ago @ octopus pie - #896 - some unbearable... · 0 replies · +5 points