I understand your feelings. I blamed myself for a long time because I had taken Cymbalta while pregnant with my son who has Asperger Syndrome. But talking to family and my husband, I realize Little D. would have been that way whether I had taken anything or not. No one can give a straight answer because they're aren't any. It sucks, but that's how it is. We just have to learn and adjust, learn and adjust. One day hopefully it will be figured out.