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9 years ago @ The Toast - Femslash Friday: The B... · 1 reply · +3 points
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That's exactly it. And thank you. I was afraid to say anything here, because I'm not sure how this community would respond to someone who is keeping their essential self hidden. I was afraid of being told I wasn't welcome, or didn't belong. And stories like this are why I need The Toast- because I can read about experiences shared (like this article) and experiences that, had I looked into myself sooner, I might have shared. And both speak to the deepest part of me.
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There's also the fierce determination that my kids will always know they're free to be true to their own selves, with the complete and total love & support of their parents.
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9 years ago @ The Toast - Femslash Friday: The B... · 7 replies · +74 points
I wish I had found The Toast, and the community, back in college. I grew up so strictly religious that I didn't even consider looking who I was in the face until I was married to a very nice man, with babies.
The few times I was caught vaguely leaning outside my boundaries I was jerked back . I made a giant poster collage on my dorm room wall freshman year of women, beautiful women that I cut out of magazines. I didn't even consider why I was doing it, and before I could really begin TO consider it, mom came by for a visit, and gave me that look and asked what it was, and I took it down and pushed that part of me back back BACK again. I first noticed in my best friend because at a party she had another woman's head in her lap while watching a movie, with her arm draped over that friend's shoulders, and I thought it just looked so *nice,* but nothing ever happened and I realized she was straight and there are more more dozens of moments like that that I remember all my life, and it just squeezes me down into nothing.
Reading things like this, it's so beautiful and exactly right, it kills, because I'm living the life I committed to, and I just ache. And I don't know why I'm saying this buried in this comments section, but this is my favorite place online, and I feel a part of everyone here, and this article has brought me to tears, and it just needed to be said, even whispered in anonymity.