calliemiller

calliemiller

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16 years ago @ ReinventingErica.com - Thoughts on the Human ... · 0 replies · +1 points

Aw, now you're just making me blush! Thank you so much. You are right about making that decision and not looking back. "To decide means to cut off from all other choices" is...soooo scary. So true, but so scary. That is the choice that it ahead of me and as I weigh the other really intriguing choices, I lose sight of the writing.

As I mentioned in my reply to you on my blog, writing is definitely the thing that matters to me most. The basic fear in wanting something so much is, what if I'm a big mess at it? As in: what if that one thing that I most want to do, I can't ultimately do? Much easier to hem and haw on the sidelines & have the excuse that "if I had applied myself I could have done something amazing" rather than know that "i did apply myself and it wasn't amazing."

The next few months will be about filtering through the choices and deciding which ones I'm okay to close the door on, which windows I'd like to leave open, and which path (or two!) I'll ultimately be taking.

Thank you for your kind words. I look forward to future dialogue on this!