I have been praying for strength in my life and I feel like God is testing me right now to see if I can handle what has came up, anyway I pray all the time to be ready when he comes for his brides, if I say or do anything that I think is wrong, I like right then ask God to forgive me. I want to be strong and I am trying so hard to live right and be ready for my father to come get me. I try so hard to be faithful and of course I also need prayer. But if I told you the blessings God has given me , I think all you could do is smile and probably feel God's spirit. I guess I need to have more joy, but I can talk about the Lord and I cry. Sometimes I pray ' God just let me touch the hem of your garment and I raise my hand up, I reach for it , and you know Michael I feel like I can almost feel the garment. Yes I am trying also to be ready for that wonderful day.