This post kills me. Today I am moving out of my home because of this. I am bipolar. I had started taking an antidepressant that kept throwing me into a manic state...my hypersexuality got worse and worse. Everything you are describing...the need to seduce and be seduced...hits home. I cheated on my husband with 6 men between February and the beginning of October. I look at that and I think there is no way I could have done that...how did that happen? And why? I love my husband. I don't want this divorce. But he does not believe this is due to illness. He thinks I am just a liar and a cheater and that I will always be a cheater. My heart is broken. I feel like he gave up on me. When I say that he replies "You gave up on me when you cheated." I understand why he is hurt and why he wants this divorce. I just wish he could step inside my mind for a few weeks and feel how this feels, especially when I am hypersexual. He doesn't seem to believe that exists...or he feels like it's just my excuse. Interestingly enough, I stopped that antidepressant and have not had a manic episode since. It could just be my situation but I don't want men to even come near me right now.

I feel like I'm going to die alone now.