I grew up in Utah, therefore to have friends I starting going to church with my neighbors/friends in the Mormon church. I was baptized into the LDS church at 13. I moved to Oklahoma lost my faith after a traumatic event before moving, And found the faith of sin in Oklahoma. I was wild, when I got pregnant at 19 unmarried and alone I still had no faith. When I got pregnant reconciling with my sons dad I ended up even more lost. When my brother dragged me to church on Easter 2003 at LIfechurch.tv during the series "whats the difference" on the day Craig talked about mormons and the difference between them and christians I did not get it. But a year later I told Craig I got it. From that day on I was a member of Christ family. I still look through father, mormon, childhood googles when I look to my Father in Heaven and doubt more than I believe. But now I know the difference.

This is beautiful. Growing up with a father who provided not guided and raising two boys on my own. I ache for a man who will love my boys this way. Who will kiss them goodnight and say I love you. Who will come home before midnight, before 8 so he can say goodnight. They deserve that!

I wonder why I can not see and hear God the way I used to.

So glad you are back!!