Wow Baquia you are really getting tech on this blog. How amazing to read that letter from 1979 and see how much of it is true today. I could not have spoken any better myself 30 years later.

I stopped by some of my Bahà’í friends today, one on the LSA who openly admits to me he is inactive, it was an interesting convo. We have not seen each other in a few years and we used to see each other monthly for years, 15 to be exact. I recalled to him a conversation he had with me about 5 years ago when in a meeting with the LSA he asked me why I still was a Bahà’í after all the pain and insults I had taken from members being myself, the questioning bird I told him the people failed me but the writings never did and until they did I found something divine in them. We then disused a deceased friend of mine, I have mention him when he asked about why I un-enrolled verses just become inactive. I told him Shoghi Effedi gave me a loop whole when I could un-enroll when I no longer agreed with the Teachings and Institutions which is precisely where I am at. I told him I left before I would be kicked out for all the questions I have that no one wants to talk about. I mentioned the question, why did Shoghi Effendi declare his whole family CB’s, where was the mercy?

? Even though Remey went rouge what was not one Bahà’í at his funeral? Had he conformed to the general consensus and joined that party instead of split it could he not have gone down as one of the greatest servant of the Cause it it’s history outside of a family member?. It was so apparent I was upsetting them but with thier love and grace they listened and I left and sent the following email:

Friend, I hope I didn't offend you about my statements and my unconstrained opinions. As I shared I deeply miss my deceased friend Craig who was a soul I could ask any question to, discuss any subject, and he always gave me something to hold on to, and even more, he truly adored all of me, even the annoying bits and never once made me feel ashamed of being me. He could turn sadness into joy and irony into luck. He was an open hearted expert on the Bahà’í Faith and while he was alive he answered all of my questions or lead to the books where I could find the answers for myself. It is my hope that one day someday I will find his kindred spirit and it will be then that some of my "unanswered questions', new to arise since his passing, will be lovingly and intellectually explained to me without the fear of repercussions to the depth of my unbounded inquiry. Wish me his luck!

Why did Shoghi Effendi declare his whole family CB’s?
Who died and made the UJH an infallible voice of God?
Who came up with the idea of creating the very division Baha’u’llah hoped to abolish by coining the phrase “Bahà’í”?
Who profits most in the BF, the AO or the people?
Why do I still yearn for resolve on a matter nearly one year ago I thought I had in un-enrolling?
Why do I still mourn?